Happy Birthday, Zachary.

Loving you is wonderful

Something like a miracle

Rest assured I feel the same way you do

Needing you it isn't hard

With you I can let down my guard

Stay secure is all I'm asking of you

I wish I had words to tell

This feeling that I know so well

but I don't. . . 

I don't. . . 

All that I can say

All that I can say

All that I can say is. . . 

Knowing him, loving him

showing him that I'm all in

living and forgiving him

I would do it all again

Genuine, seraphim

sweeter than cinnamon

Heaven-sent gentleman

Synonyms for loving him

I love you, I love you

Don't wanna live without you

You're all that I can say.

~ "All That I Can Say" as sung by Mary J. Blige

(Lyrics by Lauryn Hill)

Another year, but the same song is looping in my head 365 days later.  I guess it's because I look for the words to describe what it's like to be your mother and I become a weepy mess. That's when I stop and sing that song instead. . . .

Baby boy, know this--you are cherished and were conceived in love. Fortunately, that love is still intact and working together to build you up into a man who recognizes his worth and feels proud of who he is. Yes. Because who you are is wonderful. . .something like a miracle.

Sigh. . . .I wish I had words to tell. . . .but I don't.  I love you, son. I so, so do. That's all that I can say (without crying.)

*If you want a chuckle, read the story of my labor with Zachary here.